There is so many times where my problems become bigger than they really are and I let my emotions become bigger than what they need to be. The small things in life seem to be so much when I try to do them by myself or think I can handle them in a quick amount of time. It usually takes place after things have been going really good for a good length of time. I came to that spot last night of having small things that usually shouldn’t matter, really take a big hold over my emotions and how I handled things. What I read from C.H. Spurgeon’s Morning & Evening booklet, really spoke to the heart of what my problem was.
‘He was sore athirst, and called on the Lord, and said, Thou hast given this great deliverance into the hand of they servant, and now shall I die for thirst?’
“Samson was thirsty and ready to die. The difficulty was totally different from any which the hero had met before. Merely to get thirst and assuaged is nothing like so great a matter as to be delivered from a thousand Philistines! but when the thirst was upon him, Samson felt that little present difficulty more weighty than the great past difficulty out of which he had so specially been delivered. It is very usual for God’s people, when they enjoyed a great deliverance, to find a little trouble too much for them. Samson slays a thousand Philistines, and piles them up in heaps, and then faints for a little water! Jacob wrestles with God at Peniel, and overcomes Omnipotence itself, and then goes ‘halting on his thigh’! Strange that there must be a shrinking of the sinew whenever we win the day. As if the Lord must teach us our littleness, our nothingness, in order to keep us within bounds. Samson boasted right loudly when he said, ‘I have slain a thousand men’. His boastful throat soon grew hoarse with thrist, and he betook himself to prayer. God has many ways of humbling His people. Dear child of God, if after great mercy you are laid very low, your case is not an unusual one. When David had mounted the throne of Israel, he said, ‘I am this day weak, though anointed king’. You most expect to feel weakest when you are enjoying your greatest triumph. If God has wrought for you great deliverance in the past, your present difficulty is only like Samson’s thrist, and the Lord will not let you faint, nore suffer the daughter of the uncircumcised to triumph over you. The road of sorrow os the road to heaven, but there are wells of refreshing water all along the route. So, tried brother, cheer your heart with Samson’s words, and rest assured that God will deliver you ere long.” (Evening, January 21, Spurgeon)
I hope that this helps those that might have gone through, or even are going through some things that follow along with what this is talking about.